Horrible Day

Ok so first I would like to start by saying that usually I would not do something like this, but it seems like these days I need a bit of a distraction.

I am 17 weeks and 2 days into my second pregnancy. Johnny and I planned out exactly when we wanted to have this baby. We wanted to have it in a month that it didn't have to share a ton of birthdays (we have a large family), and when I didn't have to be pregnant during the summer again! So we chose the month of May. Little did we know that 5 of our other family members were getting pregnant too. Guess you can't plan everything. Anyways, we are all due within weeks of each other and somehow every single one of them already know what they are having but me. I don't find out till Jan. 4th! Why Dr. Stanley is being so stubborn about waiting, I don't know. On a good note though, they are all having BOYS so maybe that leaves a girl gene in there for me!!

On to the next. I started a job in April of this year and never would I have imagined that I would be sitting here jobless as of yesterday. I helped start this company and did everything I could to be a part of the team from IT work, to be the errand girl and then doing my job on top of it. I loved working with the people I worked with and loved what I was doing. Then within the last couple months, my boss started letting everyone go. She kept saying my job was safe, but somewhere in there I knew that wasn't true. Now she has dropped herself down to 2 employees and barely any overhead to insure the most money for them. One of the employees being her kidless sister who already has a full time job with benefits along with this one. And I with a two year old and being 4 months pregnant get the shaft.

I think I've cried all I can. I've looked for jobs and in Abilene they are few and far between. In fact, the ones that are out there are part time at minimum wage which wouldn't even cover the daycare and gas it takes to get there. It wouldn't be so bad if Johnny's company hadn't shortened their hours until some new jobs start up.

I know there are people with less out there and it will take some adjusting, but it hurts to be let go from a job that you put so much heart and soul into.

I guess this is goodbye for now. Cash wants to take a bath!!!